Flutter tummy.
Well I guess the good thing about flying is that instead of driving for 3 days to get home, I only have to fly 3 hours instead. Often times I’ve seriously considered the drive, but have been shut down by most everyone in my life. Supposidly it would be much more risky to drive 3 days alone in my car then for me to step foot on a plane, yet somehow I dont believe it.
I know all the statistics thanks to my therapist, but somewhere inside my head its just not clicking. The preflight anxiety, then the sitting on the plane anxiety, followed by the take off anxiety, the leveling-off anxiety, and lastly the turbulence anxiety, turns my stomach upside down and inside out.
I knew that I would be nervous for this flight because I havent flown in 6 months, but somehow I thought by some miraclous miracle that I would be a-ok. I have had a better week then I anticipated, not getting nervous until this afternoon. Yoga really helped me center myself for the morning, but then the reality set in while I was packing this afternoon.
I know so many people will go through thier lives never getting on a plane and getting to experience traveling but I guess I have a hard appreciating my experiences. I love traveling on cruise ships, trains, buses, cars, and just about anything that doesnt lift off of the ground. It terrifies me.
This time tomorrow I’ll be relaxing with my family. I just need to practise my relaxation, deep breathing, and positive thinking…until I land.