My heart aches for you.
It was only suppost to be a routine check up, so it was completly unexpected that she had to leave with an empty carrier. I had only spoken with her for a short moment in grand scheme of life, but I felt we had connected. It was through our love for cats that we had begun our conversation, hers being fifteen years old and mine being a mere 10 weeks old. Her cat was her pride and joy and I was looking forward to creating a similar bond with mine.
Minutes later she was coming out of exam room #2 with an empty carrier in hand. Her face was red and she was looking at the floor. The woman at the desk said to her in a quite voice, “I’m sorry it had to happen like that” and all she could do was walk away.
Our eyes met as she was on her way out the door and I asked her if everything was ok and she looked up at me and said “I guess it was time”.
Her eyes then welling up and her heart breaking as she was no longer able to hold on to the pain any longer, she let out a gasp of sorrow. I was hurting so bad inside wanting to cry then and there but held it together long enough to let out “My thoughts will be with you.”. Knowing had that been me, I would have needing something, anything.
The door shut behind her and I completly broke down in the waiting room. I was imaginaing everything that must have been going through her mind. From the casual conversation we had, prior to finding out that her cat was too sick to continue living, to her having to leave her best friend behind. All I can do I send her my love and hope that these next few days will bring her warm memories and the kindness of friends. No loss is easy especially when your heart is involved.